Always room to Grow

Everyday I’m growing.. learning.. This time I learned to communicate.

Normally, I’m not one to really say anything if something is bothering me. It has to be really big for me to say something. Mostly because i never quite stay mad long enough for me to say anything. I just always try to give people to benefit of the doubt. and in all honesty, I think getting mad is a waste of time especially over little things when there are much BIGGER problems to get upset about. I’m the kind of person to just get over things in an hour or so. I’ve been told it’s not healthy and that I don’t have healthy communication skills. Some may even say it’s merely a defense mechanism. But the other day… This was not something I could just swallow and get over in an hour. instead, it was eating at me all day.

For me to bring up something thats bothering me, it takes me a long time to really think through what specifically is bothering me, why I’m upset and how/what do I want to say. It took me all day to figure it all out. and yet still, when the time came, I still had to muster all the courage i could possibly find in myself, close my eyes and say it before i got too scared. I must say, I felt SO much better telling someone. and that i’m very proud of myself.

I did it. I’m growing. We’re all growing. and it helps because then our relationships grow and progress. It only took me 2 years, and granted, this is the first time theres ever been anything like this that bothered me so much. But nonetheless, I communicated. And you know what? It’s nice to know that after 2 years, our relationship is still growing and progressing; that the same person has still stuck with me throughout all growth and constantly pushing me to progress further.